Silence is Better

"You know what, u never care bout how u treat people."

"All you care is how people treat you"

"You accuse people and live with your own judgements about them"

There she was. Haunted by the words thrown by an old colleague. She never expected to hear such things from him. But on the other side, she's glad because now he is braver and more mature to voice out his stand.

Yes, he changed a lot. She can see by the way he speaks and thinks although they are miles away apart. It's so funny how things can change after she left him. It really knocked him down but he reverted the pain by becoming a new and better person. Although he suffers a lot from the goodbyes, his change made her proud.

Totally hit by his words, she decided to become silent.

Away From The Sun

Sounds irony, right? The sun strikes the city with its bright shine. I could not totally open my eyes because the rays could damage my retina. And my coat, I finally took it off on my way back home.

Yes, it is a hot and sunny day. Perfect day to hang around at the city or Grafton Street!

After CC (Clinical Competencies) tutorial ended (and a 5min 'excellent' group discussion), I headed off to the St Stephen Mall. Gotta find a good book for Mimi's birthday present. I went to various sections in the bookstore. Crime, Classic, Romance, Fiction and even Irish History (I don't really know why). I just thought that since Mimi likes reading about war and stuff, History of Ireland may be her interest too. But alas, I got here a copy of 'The Kite Runner'.

Later, I withdrew some money to be converted to pounds. Yeah, this weekend I'll be off to Yorkshire, UK. I've been living in Dublin for 6 months (wow!) and already flew to UK several times. Manchester, Leeds, Stoke-On-Trent. London and Belfast?My target after this!

At around 11 am, im ready to leave. I walked along the street, empty minded though the loud sound of musics can be heard from the earphone that I wore. Suddenly I feel a sudden loneliness in my heart. 'They' who caused this loneliness came one by one. But I enjoyed the feeling of being alone in a busy street. It feels like somebody is watching me from one corner of the street.
Then I decided to ride a bus instead of walk to home.

I knew I just want to talk to my family. And I want to talk to them as soon as possible.
And now I'm listening to my little brother who is singing a new Malay song.

And I feel like home again.

Najihah - Kawan Kami

Sweet memories with her in Banting. Here are some pictures!

To KL Library

Class Photography -M06F '06/'08

Crazy Enough!

With Jihah - Galah Panjang

Amal Islami

menuju puncak!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BUDDY!

Sudahkah Ku Temui Hati itu?

Assalamualaikum..

Tertarik dengan 'shoutout' yang ditulis pada YM seorang teman, diri ini rasa terpanggil untuk berkongsi seseuatu mengenai 'HATI' pada ruangan kali ini.

Kenapa hati disini ditulis sebagai 'HATI'?

Bagi kebanyakan kita, mungkin hati itu boleh disifatkan sebagai tempat timbulnya sesuatu perasaan; Kasih sayang, sedih, kecewa, marah, geram dan sebagainya..

Bagi penggemar makanan, hati juga boleh diklasifikasikan sebagai makanan; hati masak kicap, hati sambal, dll..

Seorang sahabat pernah memberitahu bahawa hati ini sebenarnya terbahagi kepada dua bahagian.
1) Hati sebagai organ di dalam tubuh manusia itu sendiri.
Bagi pelajar perubatan seperti aku, bahagian hati yang itu telah ku lihat dan ku pegang dengan tangan sendiri. Ia, hati manusia di mana proses 'detoxifying' bahan kimia seperti drugs berlaku.

Akan tetapi, Allah Yang Maha Mencipta telah menggariskan mengenai hati yang sebenarnya di dalam surah At-Taghabun (64:11) yang bermaksud:

“…Dan barang siapa beriman kepada Allah, nescaya Allah akan memberi petunjuk kepada hatinya. Dan Allah Maha Mengetahui segala sesuatu.”

Inilah bahagian kedua 'Hati' tadi. QOLBU.
Sesuatu yang sukar kita rasa, apatah lagi untuk dilihat dan disentuh. Kalaupun ia disentuh, sentuhan itulah sentuhan rahmat yang paling bermakna.
Kerana apa?
Kerana kita menjadi dikalangan hamba pilihan Allah untuk menerima nur syahadah (petunjuk)Nya.

Dalam hadith yang diriwayatkan oleh Bukhari dan Muslim,

Rasulullah s.a.w. bersabda

“Ketahuilah, bahawa di dalam badan ada seketul daging, apabila ia baik, baiklah badan seluruhnya dan apabila ia rosak, rosaklah sekeliannya. Ketahuilah! Itulah yang dikatakan hati.”

Qolbu.
Terlalu besar peranannya di dalam diri seorang Muslim. Seiring dengan kepentingannya secara fizikal. Rasanya boleh juga disimpulkan disini bahawa Qolbu ini juga yang membezakan kemuliaan seorang pemeluk Islam dengan pemeluk agama-agama lain.
Qolbu ini telah diciptakan Allah sebagai tempat hambanya menerima hidayah. Qolbu ini diciptakan supaya setiap pemilik menjaganya supaya menjadi baik. Qolbu ini penentu baik dan buruknya seorang manusia itu.

Oleh itu, aku bertanya sendiri. Sudahkah aku menemui 'hati' yang satu ini?
Mungkin belum. Tapi InsyaAllah aku akan berusaha untuk menemuinya.

Qolbu, nantikan aku.